24 y/o. CHRIST FOLLOWER. Advocate. Worship Minister. Bibliophile. Vintage Lover. Thrift Shopper. Stellar Tatter.
I have loved you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)
I have been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.
My faith is seriously being tested right now. I think a large part of it has to do with the fact that it is very hard for me to trust people nowadays, Christians and non-Christians alike. The former, because of fear of being associated with the “goats”; the latter, because I do not want to be eaten by their worldview in my time of shakening.
Another reason is my line of study, in which I am constantly being fed with information that is against the fundamentals of my Christian belief. I am an Anthropology student, and as useful this may be for future work as a medical doctor and a missionary to the indigenous people, I am being exposed to different worldviews that I am expected to be tolerating.
I feel like I’m in a limbo. I actually did come to a point wherein I don’t really care anymore - live and let live. The Lord knows how much I’ve tried to avoid this situation in the past (dropped a class so I won’t have to deal with it), but sadly, I managed to find myself in this spot again.
Honestly, I don’t really know what to believe anymore. I don’t want to go back to church just yet. I don’t want to be in a place where people just use me for my gifts and talents but feed me with scraps of Bread. As much as I could, I really want to seek Him on my own, without thinking of anybody else, without being plagued with expectations or norms. But I feel like, wherever I go, there’s no safe ground.
So, if you’ve read this to the end and you remember me later, I hope you’d take the time to intercede for me.
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- mic0le said: Philippians 3:14 I know we don’t usually talk talk but I want you to know I’m here to listen and I really mean it so don’t be shy! God bless Blessy!
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- oggyz said: Praying for ya. Stand firm. Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. 1 Corinthians 15:58
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